Sunday, December 19, 2010

Time Enough

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Weirdly, one of the many things that physicists cannot really explain is time.  Strange, huh? We live embedded in seconds, and years, and centuries, and to us nothing is more natural than time moving forward – the arrow of time pointing inexorably from the past to the future, from youth to age, from birth to death.  Oddly, however, physicists who think about such things tell us that there is no rational explanation for why the arrow of time moves forward – as a matter of the laws of physics the arrow of time could equally well point the other direction (a la The Curious Case of Benjamin Button).   Moreover, physicists have come up with all sorts of theories about what time is and how it works.  For example, as I recall it, one theory is called “block time,” in which all of space-time is a four dimensional block -- both past and future events are all “there” – and the only thing that changes is our sense of the “present” moving forward along that four-dimensional block.
I mention this because I’ve reached that stage of life where time grows a bit short.   Part of me rebels against the transitory nature of what I love.  At least on this earth, nothing lasts forever.  I begin to discern, however, that time’s limits may contain a hidden sweetness.  Gold has value because it is rare.  Perhaps the value of what we love is greater because, at least on this earth, what we love is ephemeral.  Maybe every creature, in its never-to-be-repeated uniqueness, is  more precious because it is not going to be here forever. 

Today’s front yard critter count:
Deer: 0 (although one of the does has been here the last few mornings, spending a chunk of yesterday morning laying relaxed in the front yard, chewing her cud and taking  in the view).
Raccoons: 2
Birds eating leftover raccoon food on the front porch: many.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Flabbergasted Gratitude and Random Thoughts

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Topic #1: It’s a crisp, cold, bluebird sky day here in the Pacific Northwest.  Everything glistens, including the air around me.  I’m reminded of a quote I read last week in Kate Braestrup’s wonderful new book, “Beginner’s Grace: Bringing Prayer to Life”, about one of my heroes:

St. Francis of Assisi, who really did walk around in flabbergasted gratitude all the time, wrote: Such love does the sky now pour, that whenever I stand in a field, I have to wring the light out when I get home.

Exactly.

Topic #2: Last night when I got home from work, as I approached the front sidewalk I thought I heard a snuffling sound down near my feet.  I looked down and there, almost touching the toes of my shoes, were the latest batch of raccoon babies, evidently under the mistaken impression that I was bringing them treats from work.  I was reduced to taking baby steps (lest I step on one of them) and waving my arms around, hissing “back up, back up,” loudly enough that they would, indeed, back up, but not so loudly that they would get scared.  Mission accomplished.  I made it to the front door, into the house, and back out with the raccoon chow, all without mishap.  As I’ve said before, their mama has a more relaxed parenting style than prior raccoon mamas, so these babies are much less fearful and more willing to engage with large primates than their predecessors.

Topic #3: Is anybody else out there a perfectionist?  How’s that working out for you?  As for me, being a perfectionist is sure a mixed bag.  Until recently I’ve recognized the inherent negatives (intellectually at least) but my heart was convinced that the negatives were outweighed by the positives.   This is probably another one of those areas where black and white thinking is the real problem.  I probably don’t have to shoot for 100% perfection.  (What hubris to think that’s even possible – I have to chortle at myself for even saying that.)  Maybe I could shoot for 91%?  That’s an A-, right?  Probably good enough most of the time?

Case in point?  The photo above.  I didn’t have a tripod with me (a failing that should be the subject of another blog entry) so the photo isn’t crystal clear.  But  I love it anyway.  So there it is anyway, posted for all the world to see.

Today’s front yard critter count:

Deer: 0

Raccoons: 1

Stellar Jays: 2 (eating raccoon chow on the front porch)